harbinger: sHE's gone

Wednesday, January 03, 2007
「 what behind my shadow. 7:12 PM 」
sHE's gone FoReVer

Many dreadful things occur during my 4 days extended weekend. The weekend which we Muslims celebrate our Hari Raya Haji followed by day everyone comes up with their new year resolution as another year approaches. On the Saturday, the eve of Hari Raya Haji I was already down with sore throat and flu but I forced myself to get up of bed and visit my ex-tuition teacher's mum/auntie's neighbour in the hospital as I heard that she is in a very critical condition and may soon pass away. This is the same person who jokes around and would 'scold us' when we(my cousin and me)were having tuition with her daughter. When I went to the hospital, I saw her lying on the bed, unable to move while only ragged breaths escape from her mouth. I was so sad to see this once healthy and intimidative women has been reduced to this state after cancer has ravaged her body. I can only cry and pray for her to be released from such a pitiful condition. On the next day, on Hari Raya Haji my health condition has started to worsen and all I could not even get up of bed. At about 9.30am I was informed that she has gone from our world forever. I was saddened by this and wanted to visit her for the last time before she is buried but my mum prevented me as I was really ill. I was angry at myself for falling ill which has prevented me from my paying my last respects to her.
Cik Normah, I will pray for you....