harbinger: eXTreme Life of a nERdie

Sunday, November 20, 2005
「 what behind my shadow. 3:47 PM 」
eXTreme Life of a nERdie

U noe wat im going to pour out might seem VerY trivial to many people. I mean im considered one of those nerds u often heard about. My grades are good but somehow my dress code juz seen sloppy on an everyday basis. It's not that as if i dont know how to dress up but dressing up to school(i mean polytechnic) jus seem so cumbersome. BUt right now it's the least of my worries. It is the expectations rather high expectations from my lecturers and fellow classmates that has caused very deep worries for me especially the modules that im now taking in this semester. It is so bloody tough. I cant believe my classmates didnt see it as a big deal. I mean my programming basics wasnt realy good and we are delving further into programming. Yuckz! my thoughts exactly. how am i going to get an A for this module? and how about the other modules. They arent really that easy either. Everyone and i really mean everyone (that includes my family 2) thinks that i can really put it off. But i really doubt so. I think history is kinda of repeating by itself. I still remember my PSLE and O'Levels results. Somehow when i took very biG and ImPoRTANt exams i became so lazy and consequently my results suffer too. It is like as the pressure builds up as well as the surrounding expectations too, i will flip out. Yup, datz me. But stil idiots out there stil thinks i can manage. Okay that's it. Im getting to revved up.
Signing off
Liyana-