Thursday, January 25, 2007
HistoRy has a WaY of rEpEating itself
I guess the fates are laughing at me. And the same things have a habit of repeating itself again, albeit in different circumstances. In my case, it is being a screw-up during the critical period. I am talking about my last years in primary and seconday school. My PSLE and 'O' levels are such a disgrace because I totally slack during the time. I could have produced excellent results if not for my laziness. However when I step into poly, I decided to set goals to myself, goals that I would uphold. I became gradually sucessful whereby my grades are corncerned. In fact it kept improving as the course that wasn't really my first choice has become the course that ultimately I have learnt to grow fond of. However this internship is going to ruin everything that I have worked hard for. After the computation of the supervisor assesment is done by my LO, i would end up with a B or C. Imagine a GPO of merely 3.0 or 2.0. How low can I sink, right? Even the previous intern batch from the same department all got A’s. Today, I was delirious with disappointment that to my utter shame I've cried in front of some people. I just have a total breakdown. I couldn't believe it at first because my supervisor initially told me he's gonna give me an A. But obviously he is just lying through his teeth. Not only that, my hopes of entering into a university (something that none of my family members have done before) is growing feeble. I wonder is the grade given to me the result of being impolite to him that one time. However that is nothing much that I can do now that can salvage anything back. I have to accept this and move on with my life. From this day onwards, I promised to myself to go to the top. And once I am there, I would treat the people under my care as fairly as possible and not to have my jugement clouded with petty things. I am now reading the 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teenager especially the part about focusing on the part of circle of control and leaving off the circle with no control Signing off....
*Please take note that this happen one week earlier. I’m now nearing the end of my internship*
Monday, January 08, 2007
People who are sensible about love are incapable of it.
Is this phrase true. I guess most probably, speaking from a sensible person point of view (but also from someone who has not been in a relationship before, so maybe this may be unreliable). All around me people have been acting so weird when they are in love, doing things that are normally out of their realm. I even heard that one of aunt's friends tried to slit her wrist after her boyfriend left her. I felt that I'm lucky not to be so in LOVE to do that kind of thing to myself. During the lunch period, I was having a sort of conversation with Gordon about this. In conclusion I just feel that I will never enter in a relationship ever. I would write down why I reached this conclusion, perhaps next time.
Signing off.....
Sunday, January 07, 2007
bLooD DiaMond
Mum and I went to watch the movie Blood Diamond last Friday starring Leonardo Dicaprio and Jennifer Connely. After I have watched the movie, I realized that I have made a VeRY GOOD choice of choosing this movie. The movie is WOW. No other words can describe the implication this movie has made. It has certainly will make me think twice before I purchase any sort of diamond. I would not say much about the plot of the story just in case should you decide to watch this movie. All I can say that diamond=blood being shed=families killed=village wiped out=people killing each other. And the worst thing? People out there (including most of us) is unaware of this tragedy happening and continue to buy diamond rings for engagement, etc. Leonrado Dicaprio sertainly give a very captivating performance as a disillusioned diamond smuggler. No wonder he was nominated as the Golden Globe Best Actor. And that guy who played as Solomon who found a very precious diamond (diamond that is equivalent to about 100 carat) and was pursued by a lot of people.
All I can say now is for those of you is Please, pretty please watch this movie.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
sHE's gone FoReVer
Many dreadful things occur during my 4 days extended weekend. The weekend which we Muslims celebrate our Hari Raya Haji followed by day everyone comes up with their new year resolution as another year approaches. On the Saturday, the eve of Hari Raya Haji I was already down with sore throat and flu but I forced myself to get up of bed and visit my ex-tuition teacher's mum/auntie's neighbour in the hospital as I heard that she is in a very critical condition and may soon pass away. This is the same person who jokes around and would 'scold us' when we(my cousin and me)were having tuition with her daughter. When I went to the hospital, I saw her lying on the bed, unable to move while only ragged breaths escape from her mouth. I was so sad to see this once healthy and intimidative women has been reduced to this state after cancer has ravaged her body. I can only cry and pray for her to be released from such a pitiful condition. On the next day, on Hari Raya Haji my health condition has started to worsen and all I could not even get up of bed. At about 9.30am I was informed that she has gone from our world forever. I was saddened by this and wanted to visit her for the last time before she is buried but my mum prevented me as I was really ill. I was angry at myself for falling ill which has prevented me from my paying my last respects to her.
Cik Normah, I will pray for you....
Thursday, December 21, 2006
ByE bYe SinGaPore
My heart is soaring coz I will be heading out of Singapore for visitation cum vacation.
Here is the list of items I intend to pack in my bag:
-The BreAkdown-
Clothes
-2 pairs of shirt/T-shirts
-2 long pants
-swimsuit wear
-1 pajamas
Toiletries
-deodarant
-perfume
-2 cleanser/ facial wash
-toner
-mosturizer
-toothbrush
-face powder
Miscellanious
-mp3 player (a must)
That is all I can think of now. What I can think now is to go back home and watch anime.
Anyway, roger and out
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
HoUseWOrk
Many people would groaned when they hear this word. In my opinion HOUSEWORK is not that bad. Yes, it is in fact one of the ways to rejuvenate ourselves. Especially housework that involves some hot dripping sweat which includes vacuuming, sweeping the floor, changing bedsheets, cleaning the windows and windowsills, etc.
You would be surprised at the wonders of what doing housework can do. Whenever I sweep and dust my house, I feel some physical exertion and my endorphins start kicking in. Besides being a great way to 'exercise' this is also the time I feel in the void of music in my life. Not to mention daydreaming. This is why I enjoyed doing my housework as there are many enjoyable things that can be done at the same time. Well, just do not give me housework such as washing dishes or the toilet. YUCKS!!!
Thursday, December 07, 2006
SpEWing of HOT air
I will have to postpone the tips on renewing yourself. This is because I feel I juz have to BLOW UP. All these pent-up anger have to be let go. How would you feel if you don't really know about the head and tail of the case and people expect you to bring it up in the meeting. PuH-leese. And how about him mentioning that when we have gone at 6pm, he sent a message to the customer to ask them to reboot the server. What is up with that? Why mention the time? It is as if he want to highlight the fact that we are lazybums. Excuse me sir, but don't you know that the comapny's operating hours is until 6pm. And please don't expect us interns to stay back late just so that we can initiate a remote halo session for him. In fact you never inform us verbally to stay back late so why do you have to act irritated when we were leaving at 6pm sharp?
